Mama Don't You Cry

Came across this post dekat timeline FB
Rules for fathers of sons
quickly share it with my surfacing
I can safely say surfacing already achieved number 26
haha
No lah hunney,
You are doing perfectly fine
I could not ask for more
Tiap-tiap malam dulu kerja saya tukar diaper, pyjama and feed hamza before tidur
tapi sekarang awak yang buat
haaa nampak tak permainan itu
ngeeee

Then aku saja blogwalk dekat penulis article ni
Diapers & Daisies
The moment I read the current entry, I'm hooked.
scrolling for more and more entry
She's a mother of 3  with another one on the way
She shares tips, experience, insecurity and paranoia of being a mother
Best sangat
until I read this post
"The mommy ward mindset of different"
Simply made me cry
The never ending dilemma between SAHM and working mom


" She may not choose this life. It may be necessary for her family.
Or maybe it is a choice, but that doesn't mean that it makes it any easier"
-Diapers & daisies

Oh how I wish I don't have to go to work everyday
Oh how I wish I can spend more quality time with Hamza
Oh how I wish I can cook variety food for my son and my husband
Oh how I wish I don't have to leave my son with a complete stranger at the daycare

Everytime aku fikir pasal hamza masuk taska ni rasa nak mengalir air mata aku
dahla 2-3 hari ni manja kemain
BS dia kata asyikla nangis tak boleh tinggal langsung
macam tau-tau je
Next week monday first day dia akan test duduk kat taska
selasa-rabu masih dengan babysitter
Khamis onwards start dengan taska
Aku siap ambik cuti monday to check on him every 3 hours to make sure everything okay
Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan olehNya
Semoga Hamza happy di tempat baru dengan kawan-kawan
Semoga babysitter di taska melayan Hamza dengan baik

Don't worry Ummi,
Hamza belajar MMA ni
Tiap-tiap malam layan UFC sama abah
Kalau dorang katok Hamza, Hamza mengadu kat Allah suruh katok dorang balik tau ummi