Thursday, November 21, 2013

Mama Don't You Cry

Came across this post dekat timeline FB
Rules for fathers of sons
quickly share it with my surfacing
I can safely say surfacing already achieved number 26
No lah hunney,
You are doing perfectly fine
I could not ask for more
Tiap-tiap malam dulu kerja saya tukar diaper, pyjama and feed hamza before tidur
tapi sekarang awak yang buat
haaa nampak tak permainan itu

Then aku saja blogwalk dekat penulis article ni
Diapers & Daisies
The moment I read the current entry, I'm hooked.
scrolling for more and more entry
She's a mother of 3  with another one on the way
She shares tips, experience, insecurity and paranoia of being a mother
Best sangat
until I read this post
"The mommy ward mindset of different"
Simply made me cry
The never ending dilemma between SAHM and working mom

She may not choose this life. It may be necessary for her family.
Or maybe it is a choice, but that doesn't mean that it makes it any easier"
-Diapers & daisies

Oh how I wish I don't have to go to work everyday
Oh how I wish I can spend more quality time with Hamza
Oh how I wish I can cook variety food for my son and my husband
Oh how I wish I don't have to leave my son with a complete stranger at the daycare

Everytime aku fikir pasal hamza masuk taska ni rasa nak mengalir air mata aku
dahla 2-3 hari ni manja kemain
BS dia kata asyikla nangis tak boleh tinggal langsung
macam tau-tau je
Next week monday first day dia akan test duduk kat taska
selasa-rabu masih dengan babysitter
Khamis onwards start dengan taska
Aku siap ambik cuti monday to check on him every 3 hours to make sure everything okay
Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan olehNya
Semoga Hamza happy di tempat baru dengan kawan-kawan
Semoga babysitter di taska melayan Hamza dengan baik

Don't worry Ummi,
Hamza belajar MMA ni
Tiap-tiap malam layan UFC sama abah
Kalau dorang katok Hamza, Hamza mengadu kat Allah suruh katok dorang balik tau ummi

Friday, November 15, 2013


so true!!
aku gelak gila tengok ni
ramai pulak dok share kat IG
This week memang busy
ada 5 reports, ganti bos masuk meeting
ada 2 event upcoming
this week I wish I have more time
tapi tetap nak balik pukul 5 tepat takmo keja lebih
tapi dalam busy ni khatam gak stalk blog orang 

aku nak update pasal hamza 12-14 months
tapi nanti lah sebab aku ni suka cerita panjang2 with pictures
so jadinya tak siap2 entry tu

aku tak sabar nak tunggu bulan 12
sebab nak settlekan event besar pastu boleh amik cuti seminggu wahh
cuti aku ada 7 hari lagi ni
cuti kat sini banyak wey...aku setahun dapat 28 cuti ke apa ntah

aku suka tengok blogilates ni
Thanks tina bila u share ni rasa macam ada harapan nak kurus balik
tapi ntah bila aku nak start buat ni
neverending house chores 
but it give me a glimpse of hope yang aku boleh kurus walaupun tak pergi gym
Oh how I miss my Lynyrd Skynyrd and Black Sabbath T-shirt
Bila gemuk ni buat aku tak suka amik gambar
explaining why my IG penuh gambar Hamza je

aku jumpa Honest Trailer  by screen junkies kat youtube
serius lawak gila weyyy
dia review filem2 dengan cara paling honest sekali
please, watch it
it will make your day
kena ceramah 3 jam sama bos sampai jadi tepu
bila tengok honest trailer ni terus riang gembira alam ria cuti sekolah
ni salah satu favourite aku

spot on!

Came across this PSA dekat facebook
I really really like it
but successfully send a powerful message to parents out there
including me

Never ever take our children for granted
never ever leave our children out of sight
yang aku observe biasa kalau anak sorang kita masih alert
tapi bila dah ramai, kita akan mudah cuai
opportunist akan ada di mana-mana
bila letak anak dalam stroller masa shopping always make sure stroller kita pegang
never let it go
make sure buckle up anak kat stroller
kalau tak, senang je dia nak angkut anak kita sekelip mata je boleh hilang
kalau keluar berdua je dengan baby kena sentiasa pandang kiri kanan
tapi kalau nak jadi, akan jadi jugak kan
semoga anak kita semua sentiasa dilindungiNya

eh dah nak pukul 5.00
Hello Weekend :)

Monday, November 11, 2013

Thursday, November 07, 2013

It's a Mom Thing

aku terbaca kawan aku share kat FB yang aku rasa macam
ehhhh betul sangat ni.

so just for fun mommies and you will find this article make sense


Co-authored by Mark Simmons, co-founder WeMothers llc
We asked the moms of what it means to be a mom. Here is what they told us. You know you are a mom when:
1. Instead of running from projectile vomit, you run towards it.
    (running with wet cloth dan febreeze okayyy)
2. You do more in seven minutes than most people do all day.
(talking about sterile bottle while masak while buat susu while basuh pinggan)

3. Happy hour has become the 60 minutes between your kids going to bed and you going to bed. 
(bila hamza tidur aku pun yeay layan internet tp kena pulak pegi lipat kain)

4. A night of drinking requires more recovery time than minor surgery.
5. A glass of wine counts as a serving of fruit.
(for me, lebihan buah yang potong untuk hamza counts as serving of fruit)

6. You have mini-therapy sessions all day long with anyone who will listen.
(helloo whatsapp girlfriends yeay theraphy all day available 24-7 hehe)

7. Going to the grocery store by yourself is a vacation.
(sometimes aku rasa driving time jam pun boleh jadi "me time")

8. You can experience heaven and hell at the same time.
(tidur peluk hamza tiba2 dia pusing and hantuk kepala kat muka aku and aku menjerit sakit gilaaa..or for u breastfeeding mothers sambil seronok bf sambil ketakutan kena gigit haha)

9. You think of physical pain on three levels: pain, excruciating pain and stepping on a Lego.
(that stupid blocks...and mini cars and botol vicks cemana kau ada kat bawah ni?)

10. You have the ability to hear a sneeze through closed doors in the middle of the night, two bedrooms away, while your SO snores next to you(especially bila dia selsema hidung block..we, mothers have sixth sense)

11. You'd rather have a 103 degree fever than watch one of your kids suffer with it.
(freaking true!)
12. You'd rather go to sleep than have sex.
13. A 15-minute shower with the door locked feels like a day at the spa.
(my usual shower 8 min je...lebih 8 minit means aku tengah basuh bilik air)
14. Peeing with an audience is part of the daily routine.(done that)
15. You use baby wipes to clean up random spills and the dash of your car.
(one in handbag, one in the car with hand sanitizer)
16. You lock yourself in the bathroom and pretend to have diarrhea just to get a break.
17. You love Moms' Night Out and Date Night with the Hubs.
18. You have a secret chocolate stash because frankly, you're sick of sharing.
19. You've been washing the same load of laundry for three days because you forgot to dry it.
(sejak jadi mak ni memang pelupa je keja. happened to me all the time)

20. You realize you've been watching Nick Jr. alone, even though your kids have been in bed for over 30 minutes.
(in my case - babytv. I even subconsciously humming babytv song out loud sampai surfacing tegur - yang ko nyanyi lagu hamza ni napa?)

21. You can cook dinner, breastfeed, talk on the phone and yell at the kids, all without breaking stride or missing any of the TV show you are watching.
(record je pakai decoder)
selingan lunch bila mood rajin

22. You get more excited about the Mini Boden Catalogue than J Crew's.(I get excited at H&M kids section, kedai buah MBG , toys r us and any outlet with kids section)
23. You decide to stick with your car for the next decade because a) you can't afford to switch and b) you haven't found a car wash that knows how to get all the milk stains and glitter removed.
24. By the end of the day, brushing your teeth feels like a huge accomplishment.

For me, one more sign you're a mom is you will try to talk about your child in any conversation and even though it's totally unrelated you will find a way to make it somehow connected to mention their name at least once.
The very obvious sign I AM A MOM when I dedicate all my love song for my husband to my Hamza. contohnya lagu "I dont want to miss a thing by aerosmith" "sempurna by adra and the backbone" and "can't take my eyes off of you by frankie valli"
sorry honey, semua tu dah jadi lagu untuk Hamza.
tapi lagu "wonderful tonight" still yours.

MY INTERMONOLOGUE:Aerosmith - I don't Want To Miss A Thing

Friday, November 01, 2013


Ahad lepas beli groceries kat Jusco
super crowded parking penuh rupanya baru teringat ada AEON Sale
so masa tengah beratur bayar tu dapat sms dari babysitter Hamza

"Salam Lela. Nak bagitau sesuatu ..sebelum tu nak minta maaf banyak..
sebenarnya tak sampai hati tapi kena cakap jugak...kami dah sepakat nak pindah
balik kampung disember ni ..jadi tak dapatlah nak jaga hamza nanti"

aku baca je terus tunjuk zul
dua-dua diam..speechless
lagipun tengah kat kaunter bayar kan
dalam kereta aku dah macam 
"alamak..sapa nak jaga hamza nanti niii"
sambil berbalas2 mesej sama bs hamza
but sms aku takdelah mcm menunjukkan kekecewaan
aku cakap its ok, terima kasih jaga hamza selama ni
susah nak dapat pengasuh macam dia dah..
it's time for her to move on, berhijrah
good for her

but honestly...aku rasa aku susah nak dapat pengasuh macam lidya dah
dia dahla jaga anak aku sorang je
tak berkira masa, tak banyak kisah dengan cerewet dan perangai skema aku ni
bayangkanlah aku bagi 3 muka do's and dont's masa first hantar hamza
tak pernah memandai2 nak bagi anak aku makan apa2
hamza pun seronok je dengan dia pasal ada anak2 dia rajin melayan

Then it hit me...
I have to send hamza to nursery!
memang aku ada plan nak hantar hamza pi taska umur 2 tahun nanti
but this is too early
at least dia dah boleh jalan baru aku confident sikit
dia dahla kalau ramai2 orang dia akan nangis pasal tak biasa
cemana kalau dia nangis setiap kali hantar?
ada budak lain tak buli dia nanti?
makan minum on time tak nanti?
pampers tukar selalu tak? 
adoi nak kena beli sticker untuk baju and barang2 dia pulak
which is aku dah survey nak beli kat sini
thanks bai for sharing tak sabar pulak nak iron on kat baju dia semua

maka malam tu mengadulah aku pada mommy2 whatsapp
thank you ladies for listening and bagi cadangan
esok tu aku terus google call sana sini

so aku ada a few options:
1. Taska cahayamata kat office aku
- 30 kids 10 teachers / RM 260.00
- 5 orang budak baya hamza
so far kuota dah penuh tapi aku hantar je borang permohonan kot dapat
senang jenguk anak
aku ni bukan kerja dok opis je so kalau meeting or event kat luar cemana?
Hamza kena bangun awal gila pastu aku ni dahla bawak kereta laju cilok sana sini
macam menakutkan pulak pikir nak bawak hamza 1 jam pergi and 1 jam balik

2. Taska Mama Anis Taman sri gombak
- 9 kids 2 babysitter and 1 more nak tambah end of this month
- dekat area bs hamza sekarang
aku dah buat lawatan tapak so far aku puas hati sebab owner taska
adalah owner tadika i-kids
Taska berdaftar JKM, Bomba, persatuan taska selangor, KKM
 6.30am - 7.00pm / RM 350.00
kebersihan ok rumah endlot semua ada gate dan berkunci
aku boleh park playpen hamza kat bilik atas so tak kongsi dengan baby lain
bilik tu ada aircond and khas untuk baby je
My 1st choice so far
Kena make sure dia ada tambah sorang pekerja tu kalau tak 2 orang
nak jaga 9 budak mana boleh

3. Taska Ibu Ana
- Taska paling besar di Taman Sri Gombak siap ada cawangan
- ada website
- Kalau baca macam impressive la berdaftar semua siap ada CCTV
- aku dah call pengetua nak jumpa and lawat taska sabtu ni
Nampak gaya memang pro taska ni siap buat kursus untuk pengusaha taska
Pengetua dia kata dah penuh setakat ni tapi boleh bincang this saturday

What about babysitter?
aku jumpa sorang je tapi dia ni jaga 5 orang...
rumah dia pulak kat kawasan paling sibuk kat taman sri gombak ni
rumah tepi jalan opposite shoplot jadi aku rasa macam tak sesuai

aku ada call a few places macam montessori tapi tu macam kelas 3 jam je
ada Little Caliph pulak untuk umur 4-6 tahun 
aku serius jeles dengan ada satu taska cina ni
dahla rumah banglo sebesar-besarnya
ada playground, ada kelas dari baby lagi siap ada van khas 
patutla taska cina ni mahal kan sampai mencecah seribu sebulan

Apa-apa pun aku harap dapat taska yang elok untuk Hamza
aku risau sangat tapi aku cuba fikir baik-baik je
berfikiran positif and berdoa semoga Allah lindung anak aku
time macam ni la rasa nak berhenti kerja je
But not just yet, I am so sorry hamza
ummi gotta work for us,  for nenek
zaman sekarang tak macam dulu
kuih pun 60 sen
kita kena beli rumah dulu
rumah pulak dah jadi juta-juta
takpalah kita bersusah-susah dahulu ye hamza
InsyaAllah bila tiba masa, awak akan ada ummi 24 jam kat rumah nanti
kita tengok disney kids sama-sama 
sambil layan croissant atau nasi lemak sotong special yang ummi buat sendiri 
pasal dok rumah kena la masak ye tak