Monday, April 13, 2020

The birth of Muhammad Haiqal

I need to write this down untuk kenang-kenangan nanti
Hamza dulu dah tulis
so now turn Haiqal pulak
Ceritanya bermula seminggu sebelum kelahiran dia
So here we go!

7 November 2016 (Ahad)
aku dah seminggu batuk selsema
Aku tiba-tiba diserang demam urat tapi suhu tak panas pun
pastu asyikla terkencing
aku rasa aku kena UTI (Uriniral track infection)
memang sepanjang hari aku tidur je tak larat punya pasal

9 November 2016 (Selasa)
Assessment dengan Anaest (Doc Bius)
sebenarnya doc ni dah letak tarikh c-section siap-siap pada 22/11
just in case aku tak beranak lagi nanti
explaning why kena assessment doc bius
nothing fancy just dia check kesihatan badan
Alhamdulillah sepanjang pregnancy ni memang aku OK dan cergas
walaupun minum air gula 2X tapi aku takda diabetes
berat aku pun cuma naik 5kg je
berat asal sebelum mengandung 74kg...pastu turun jadi 72kg
and minggu ni berat aku baru 77kg
doc bagi aku ubat suruh insert kat bawah untuk bunuh jangkitan UTI tu
disebabkan aku ni batuk selsema and possible UTI,
doc kata mungkin kena makan antibiotik
Kalau c-section tak boleh ada batuk ke selsema

10 November 2016 (Rabu)
check up kat klinik kesihatan pulak
Doc bagi antibiotic sebab dia kata aku dah lama sangat batuk selsema

11 November 2016 (khamis)
aku masih MC sebab memang tak larat badan aku ni.
aku ambik maternity leave starting 15 November 2016 (isnin)
aku rasa tak mampu pulak nak kerja sampai 19/11 tu
takut terberanak pulak time hadap jem sejam pegi sejam balik tu kan

12 November 2016 (Jumaat)
last day keja
aku dah settle semua hal office tapi aku masih tak sedap badan
kat bawah tu gatal haih
pastu aku pyscho rasa macam air ketuban leaking
aku terus ajak zul pegi check kat hospital selayang pukul 9 malam
lepas 3 jam check CTG/ amik darah/ air kencing
doctor discharged
dia kata takda apa ni
baby semua ok and masih kat atas lagi kedudukan dia
kalau ada jangkitan pun aku dah makan antibiotic so should be ok
ye-ye je aku pi packing siap ni kotla kena tahan kan



13 November 2016 (sabtu)
hari ni takda apa yang unusual macam biasa je
siap malam tu lepak tengok TV hamza tidur kat pangku aku
pastu aku naik atas tidur

12.30 malam:
Tengah tidur tiba-tiba aku rasa ada benda "pop" and terus air keluar
aku terjaga  bawak hp terus pegi bilik air
confirmed.
air ketuban pecah.
oh no...not again.
(first pregnancy pun air ketuban aku pecah and takda contraction)

terus call zul and bergegas pergi hospital selayang
bayangkanla tengah-tengah malam angkut hamza sekali pergi sana
kesian dia

sampai je daftar terus siap-siap tukar sarung pasal nak buat ctg
air aku memang keluar banyak consistently
hamza punya la meraung-raung kat luar bila aku masuk dalam tu

Masa aku tengah tunggu doctor seluk hamza dah menjerit-jerit pulak main kat lobi tu
aku kat dalam pun boleh dengar
masa tu ramai-ramai nurse kat keliling aku
sekali ada sorang nurse ni tiba-tiba datang and cakap kat kawan-kawan dia
"anak sapa la dok bising menjerit-jerit kat luar tu, tensen aku"
aku pun selamba jawab 
"anak saya"
muka maintain senyum hati dah panas ni

Terus terdiam dia kawan -kawan lain dia pun diam
serius silence masa tu macam awkward
itulah orang tua-tua kata cakap siang pandang-pandang
cakap malam bisik-bisik
tak baik tauuu kutuk anak patient
ngeee
takpalah saya maafkan...anak saya hyper nak buat macam mana

anyway, first time ada doctor lelaki check buat VE
sebelum ni memang semua perempuan
bila check hanya 1cm
*nangis dalam hati''
doctor tanya ada contraction? aku kata takda rasa apa
bila tengok ctg ada contraction sikit je
baby station masih -3, cervix closed
doctor pun suruh terus puasa just in case c-section...
huwaaaa

bayangkan kepala baby aku masih -3


















serious aku dah goyah bila dengar keadaan tu
doctor tanya nak induce tak atau wait and see?
aku cakap kita wait and see sampai esok dulu

lepas check tu aku suruh zul balik sebab dah settle masuk wad
so dapatla aku wad 4 bilik kelas 2
malam tu aku cuba la nak jalan konon nak bagi baby turun cepat
tapi bila jalan menjejeh2 air aku keluar
dokla tukar pad and alhamdulillah takda stain
aku takut betul kalau ada color sebab tu tanda baby dah berak
bila buat CTG langsung takda progress takda contraction
aku call zul tanya
"awak rasa saya patut ke induce?"
zul kata terpulang pada awak dia serahkan keputusan kat aku

malam tu aku cuma tidur 1 jam je sebab dok google pengalaman orang
dok fikir dok berdoa apakah patut aku buat
patut ke aku induce atau czer je terus?



14 November 2016 (Ahad)

Lepas sembahyang subuh aku dah tunggu doctor pakar datang
tak sabar nak suruh dia check nak tau apa opinion dia
aku dah buat keputusan
I just need a little "push"

10.00am:
doctor buat round and datanglah doctor pakar perempuan
serius muka dia macam Pengetua sekolah hamza kat Permata Kurnia
one thing about doctor pakar ni dorang memang relax and tak banyak cakap
again dapat Doctor perempuan
dia kata dia nak seluk aku pun dah siap nak angkat kaki
sekali dia cakap it's ok tak perlu u buka kaki sikit je
siap tutup kaki aku tak payah nak kangkang besar pun
bagusnya laaa

pastu dia cakap
"no progress nor lela. cervix closed, station minus 3 no contraction...so you nak buat apa?"
aku tanya
"should i go for induce?"
Dia kata
"it's up to you sebab you dah ada prev scar
i tak nak impose apa-apa pada you it's your decision
kalau induce u tau kan risk macam mana and kalau takda progress kita czer so up to you"

aku memang dah fikir masak-masak sebenarnya
aku cuma nak tau apa kata dia je
aku pun kata
"takpalah i go for c-section"

dia terus ok note kat kertas
"not keen for iol"
oh damn
ni kalau geng-geng alami dengar memang confirm la aku kena kutuk
kata takda ilmu birthing etc

so aku scheduled for c-section after zohor.
Alhamdulillah.

The reason why I chose c-section:
1. air ketuban dah pecah aku tak sanggup ambik risk anak kena infection atau tiba-tiba anak dah berak kat dalam tu

2. Takda progress, takda contraction ...kalau induce mungkin ada sikit . mungkin berjaya?
atau mungkin end up macam hamza dulu 2 hari induce tak jadi apa. bila dah ada 1 prev scar dose induce pun tak boleh kuat

3. station baby masih -3 takda turun pun


so yes, aku memang hati dan naluri kuat nak c-section je. you can call me chicken but I know i've made the right choice.


2.00pm
Zul tengah on the way nurse dah datang nak pasang catheter
benda paling aku benci sebenarnya sebab ngilu weyyy
lepas je pasang rupanya dorang nak bawak aku pi labor room terus
aku tiba-tiba rasa nak berak boleh tak?
aku cakap kejap nurse saya nak berak pulak ke contraction ni???
so aku pun pergi la toilet
memang hampa sebab takda berak pun and takda contraction pun
harapan pelesu je

pastu terus aku dibawa pegi OT
Sampai kat OT minta maaf dengan zul haih syahdu rasanya
but hey this is my 2nd time so takdala nervous mana
cewah

aku pun diletakkan di luar OT sementara tunggu surgeon datang
Tiba-tiba datang seorang lelaki memakai scrub
"Assalamualaikum Puan, Saya Dr Hilmi , doktor bius pada hari ini. 
Puan sihat ye tiada selsema batuk?"
opocot terkejut mak tiba-tiba seorang doktor lelaki yang handsome menegur sebegitu
serious anes @ doctor bius aku ni muka dia macam shaheizy sam
Terus aku tengok nama kat baju dia
"HILMI ALADIN"
aik nama betul ke tu?
aku siap terpikir wah ada jugak orang yang pleasant looking
untuk aku tengok sementara nak operate ni
pastu aku aku macam astaga ada ke pemikiran macam ni
ampun wahai suamiku hahahaha
ni life and death situation ko baru je minta maaf dengan laki kot
hadui

pastu aku ditolak masuk dalam OT
dorang pun prep aku macam nak siang ikan
letak plastik itu ini
serius OT kalini riuh rendah sebab semua staff kat situ perempuan dan speaking kelantan
hok tak pahe apa dorang dok borak tapi memang riuh macam pasar
yang lelaki sorang ni je doctor bius hensem yang memakai surgical cap captain america
*drools
haippp

dekat 20 minit berlalu aku dah terbaring tunggu disiang tiba-tiba dorang dok bising
mana surgeon ni?
sorang doctor ni kata
"Minta maaf ye puan kena menunggu macam ni"
doctor bius aku pun dah bising
"ni apa cerita ni mana surgeon patient dah tunggu lama macam ni"
rupanya surgeon aku tak dapat dihubungi via call mahupun whatsapp
aku macam alamak saya nak beranak niii

another 10 minit tunggu akhirnya dapat dihubungi
surgeon aku pun perempuan juga Alhamdulillah
Doctor bius pun memulakan kerjanya suruh aku duduk peluk bantal
dia kata
"ok puan ni akan sakit sikit ye"
honestly aku takda la rasa sakit sangat pun
pastu macam biasa la dia test ada rasa ke tidak
and yes takda rasa
so aku tanya dia
"doctor kalau tiba-tiba karang saya rasa sakit macam mana? because it happened to my friend"
dia kata "
takpa nanti puan terus inform saya don't worry"

Akhirnya surgeon aku tiba juga
The time is now ...
tiba-tiba aku macam susah nak bernafas
aku terus cakap doctor saya tak boleh bernafas
doctor bius aku cakap "kenapa puan? puan ok ke ke?"
aku macam panic sebab tak boleh bernafas
doctor bius pun cakap
"oh puan nervous ni, panic attack. breathe in breathe out"
perghh dalam tadi aku punya calm
sekali tiba-tiba aku diserang panic attack
lama-lama aku bernafas ok balik

Semua terus ready and surgeon buat incision
mula-mula aku nampak juga dari reflection atas tu
sekali doctor tu perasan terus dia alihkan angle kain tu and tak nampak apa
suasana kat OT masih riuh rendah dorang dok kecek kelate gelak kuat-kuat
mengurangkan rasa nervous aku
serius aku rasa lama gila kot
sampaila tiba-tiba dorang goncang-goncang perut aku

goncang sekuat-kuatnya dekat 3 kali tapi baby tak keluar
aik susah betul ni
sekali doctor bius aku berdiri belakang dia kata
"minta maaf ye puan, kita nak keluarkan baby ni saya kena tekan sedikit"
dia terus tekan bahu aku supaya tak bergoyang
pastu surgeon dok goncang-goncang kuat lagi and keluar satu suara indah
Alhamdulillah baby dah keluar
automatik air mata aku mengalir keluar
ntahla sentimental pulak

Pastu nurse datang tunjuk muka baby kat aku
tangan and kaki jari cukup dia kata
dapatlah aku tengok sekilas and confirmkan muka anak aku
pastu dorang jahit nak tutup balik
pun aku rasa lama gila

ada satu part tu tiba-tiba aku rasa macam dorang tengah alihkan organ-organ badan aku
macam dia sumbat organ badan aku ke atas
punyala panik aku terus aku cakap
"eh kenapa ye doktor? ada apa tu doktor?"
surgeon tu kata takda apa pun kita tengah tutup ni
serius aku rasa dia macam tengah susun usus aku ke apa
hahahahahaha
jimbet betul

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ok i wrote that experience like 2 months after i gave birth to Muhammad Haiqal Mohd Zulkarnain
honestly i don't remember anything much sebab sekarang dah tahun 2020
Haiqal pun dah masuk 4 tahun
damn I completely ignore my blog
I will publish this anyway!
oh hey right now we are living in the moment because of the RESTRICTED MOVEMENT CONTROL
Almost a month at home and we will be at home until 28 April 2020 thanks to virus Covid-19
Malaysia Health Ministry frontliners are doing their very best and i am very proud of my country.

Ok let see if boredom stuck me again and make me wanna write.
chow


MY INTERMONOLOGUE:
Billy Crudup - Sing Along
https://youtu.be/KFw_YzRrYTw








Tuesday, November 15, 2016

HAMZA & HAIQAL

Kisah Hamza dan Haiqal
Both lahir bulan Ogos. 
Hamza anak merdeka august, 31st  2012. 
Haiqal august 14, 2016
Both lahir di Hospital Selayang

Hamza on friday, 5.26pm
Haiqal on sunday, 3.50pm

Berat lahir Hamza 2.26kg
Berat lahir Haiqal 3.00kg
Tapi bila dah 3 bulan berat dekat-dekat pulak...
Hamza 6kg at 3 months and Haiqal 6.4kg at 3 months

Both lahir via Cesarean section because my water broke 
but no contraction, no dilation, no progress. 
My water broke at 8.00pm masa hamza 
and at 12.30am masa Haiqal.

Hamza borderline premature at 35 weeks 3 days
Haiqal full term at 39 weeks.

Both prolonged jaundice sampai 1 bulan setengah

Hamza masuk NICU 5 hari
Haiqal masuk NICU 2 hari sebab jaundice

Hamza dari baby dah clingy mesti kena sentiasa dukung, 
skin to skin.
Siang tak boleh letak dalam cot nak berpeluk je...
tapi malam tidur elok pulak.

Haiqal on the other hand banyak kena beralah dengan hamza. 
Siang bila tidur terus letak kat cot. 
Elok je tidur sampai la ummi kejut dia. 
Tapi bila malam macam nightcrawler berjaga sampai pagi. 
Macam tau inilah time dia dapat memerap berpeluk sama ummi.

Tak sabar nak tengok korang dua ni main sama-sama. 
But I'm going to enjoy Haiqal as a baby 
because I know I'm gonna miss it soon.
I only have 1 quota left😁

MY INTERMONOLOGUE: 


Thursday, September 15, 2016

Muhammad Haiqal Mohd Zulkarnain


August 14, 2016 (Sunday):
Muhammad Haiqal Mohd Zulkarnain selamat dilahirkan at approximately 3.50pm---3.0kg---cesarean section at Hospital Selayang.

Assalamualaikum dunia! 

Thursday, March 10, 2016

This is Parenting

I read this article and air mata bergenang laju jee turun.

MUST READ FOR ALL MOTHERS:

This is Parenting

The first years of parenting knocked me on my a**.

I had postpartum depression twice, and our son was a colicky baby.
As an introvert who values my freedom and space, it took me a few years to truly acclimate to parenthood. Then, just as we were starting to get into a groove, we added a second child to the mix. For many months after our daughter’s birth, I was triage parenting—constantly trying to figure out which child needed me the most while the other one cried.
More than anything else, early parenting felt like chaos.
But now, we’re crawling out of the trenches. And I’m mourning how fast it’s going. I want to freeze time a bit. I want to savor these days. These days of watching our son learn to love books, or sit at the dining room table coloring, or practice his Tae Kwon Do routine to loud techno music, darting around the living room. And our daughter, who only has a few short years left before kindergarten squeezes the baby out of her, before her spine straightens, and her sing-song preschooler voice fades.
Time is slipping away. And as the chaos fades into something more like fullness, I am seeing how damned sacred it all is.
To watch someone come into the world, to know them before you even know their name. To attend to their cries, their hunger, their fear. To feed them. To bathe and change them, to witness them in all their vulnerability, all their naked humanity. To accept them as you’ve probably never accepted anyone before. To watch your own brain rewire, connecting you to a chain of parents throughout time, turning you both stronger and more vulnerable at the same time.
To feel the muscles of your heart stretch and hum and grow so you can love in a way that is different than any other love. To use that strong heart to forgive them when they frustrate you, when they test your limits over and over again.
And even more, to forgive yourself when you’re empty on patience, when you think maybe I’m just not cut out for this whole parenting thing.
Underneath all the trappings of life, the costumes we wear, the possessions we surround ourselves with, the titles we hold— beneath it all we are human creatures who breathe and shit and love and fear and die. In the same way that watching someone leave their body is sacred—so is watching someone live. Watching them enter the world, grow, shedding their skin over and over again, stepping into new versions of themselves, with or without grace. To discover that when someone arrives in the world, they are already exactly who they are meant to be.
It’s hard and hilarious and humbling.
And it’s sacred.
Not in the Enjoy every moment you are so very blessed way. Not in the Isn’t it all just so magical? way. But in the way you can go from ohmygod if somebody says mommy one more time I’m going to Van Gogh my ears to a few hours later as you watch their sweet moon faces sleep and you hear yourself whisper aren’t I the luckiest person in the world?
Parenting rearranges us, offers us new lenses to see the world, lenses we were born with but that got shattered or lost over the decades: like when my son races outside to smash ice with his boots, and I slow down enough to join him, finding pleasure in that sound that ice makes as it begins to surrender beneath our feet. Or how ecstatic my daughter is when I return from the grocery store, lugging her favorite fruits.
Our kids remind us to squint and see the world with fresh eyes; sometimes it’s amazing and sometimes we are just too damned tired and rushed to take it all in.
Parenting is to know all the previous versions of someone, to hold them inside your mind as they grow, as they unfold. It’s slowly learning to let go on the outside as their lives begin to take shape, separate from your own, while on the inside, in your strong, tender parent-heart, you never let go at all.

Thursday, February 25, 2016

Random February 2016

1. Dah lama tak update blog. Bukanlah busy bebenor cuma malas nak menulis.

2. But I love my blog and I want to read all of this again when i'm 10 -20 years older kalau umur panjang. Mesti best kan reminisce.

3. 2016 has been really great to me, Surfacing, Hamza and our little family. Banyak open doors/ opportunity. Alhamdulillah satu demi satu dimudahkan dan dilorongkan jalannya. Ini ke namanya rezeki baby H2? Ewah code nama macam Star Wars pulak...

4. Talking bout baby H2, I'm already week 14. All the nausea, muntah, loya, angin dah makin berkurangan, Alhamdulillah. I think I should write more often. Nanti kesian pulak takda update pasal dia sedangkan abangnya kemain lagi rajin menulis.

5. Talking about Hamza, he is progressing Alhamdulillah. Dia dah mula verbal tapi limited like baru 30-40 words and 90% english. But hey I'm not complaining! Jadilah dari takda langsung kan! He is such a happy kiddo and his behaviour getting better. This cheeky gizmo pandai gila cari attention dari ummi abah dia termasuk teacher-teacher dia because he lovesss body contact. Suka peluk kiss orang. manalaaaa orang nak marah kan.

5. Currently hamza still EIP di Tim Athfaal- full day monday-friday, EIP 2 hours/week di Permata Kurnia dan OT di HUKM twice a month.

6. I'm still working at ANGKASA. Dah 4 tahun dahhh magaddd pecah rekod paling lama keja kat sini. But I guess i'm gonna stay here for a while.

7. Not gonna further study anytime soon.

8. I just booked confinement lady untuk jaga fullday 8.00am-5.00pm for 14 days.  Mahal juga la untuk aku yang kedekut ini. Tapi takpalah aku beranak spital selayang je tak payah bayar apa.
So apa salahnya invest sikit untuk kesihatan badanku.
cukupla pantang sendiri masa first tu, seriously effectnya 6-7 bulan lepas beranak
badan sakit-sakit and macam-macam lagi datang.
NOT GOING TO HAPPEN AGAIN.

9. Probably will take 1 month extra unpaid leave lepas pantang sebab 2 bulan tak cukup sebenarnya baby kecikkk je lagi.

10. Kesian pulak hamza birthday dia kan 31 ogos sedangkan due date aku 19 ogos. (Please baby H2 kita keluar ikut term ye sayang. Jangan buat ummi terperanjat keluar awal-awal..hehehe)
Aku and surfacing kemainla plan nak buat birthday party Star Wars theme "May the 4th be with you" gitu for hamza 4th birthday but hey Allah has better plan. Takpa kalau ada duit lebih sikit kita buat la kita-kita je sebulan sebelum birthday Hamza ye (which is after raya)

11. Surfacing currently working on his first Feature Film. Can't reveal much but I AM SO PROUD OF YOU MY DEAR SURFACING! Finally masanya telah tibaaaa (nyanyi macam rakan muda)

12. I'm so unfashionable I basically wear the same jubah/ dress weekly because I only have 5 jubah and 2 baju kurung pergi kerja for the past 2 years. Sheeshh. I rather spend RM49 for T-shirt hamza yang lawa dekat H&M  dari RM39 cheap jubah kat carrefour. What the hell is wrong with us, mothers???

13. AKU MALAS MASAK and makan luar everyday so no update on recipe whatsoever. Poor my husband.

eh banyak dah tu, bye.

Friday, January 29, 2016

The First Three Years



MY DEAR MUHAMMAD HAMZA MOHD ZULKARNAIN
For the day, you were born
I was cut open
For the hideous scar
The bloated belly
The swollen and aching joints
The long and sleepless night
For the first time, I’ve seen your face
With the wires and tubes
For being so tiny and helpless
For the first time, you opened your eyes
I fell in love
For the lovely smile
The infectious laugh
The smiling eyes
You have grown so much
The tiny hands wrapped around my neck
For the endless kiss
The small hugs
The screaming and crying
The messy lunch
For the secret code
The special bond
I can see the love from your beautiful eyes
You are the greatest gift from the Almighty
My little Angel from Heaven
You are my son, my love, and my joy
I love you forever and far beyond eternity.

P/S: Yes, we are expecting :)



Monday, August 10, 2015

HAMZA EARLY INTERVENTION PROGRAM - TIM ATHFAAL





























Hamza dah start sekolah effective July, 2015
Sekolah yang dipilih - TIM ATHFAAL
Kelas ANIS (Anak Istimewa) - Early Intervention Program (EIP)
ada lebih kurang 40 student Autism, ADD, ADHD

First day sekolah memang menangis
tapi lepas tu ok je
hantar je nangis
but dekat sekolah teacher kata dia boleh ikut arahan and tak banyak karenah
terus pandai makan sendiri sampai teacher tolong suap pun dia tak bagi

Why TIM-ATHFAAL?
Aku ada terbaca review dari blog mommy yang pernah hantar
perkembangan positif pada anak
dari non-verbal dah boleh bercakap
sebelum ni dikenali sebagai Tadika Indah Murni and ada a few student Autism
Pastu banyak demand so dorang bukak cawangan baru
kelas ada kategori: ANIS, PRESCHOOL, PLAYSCHOOL and NURSERY










































TIM-ATHFAAL takda specific treatment macam ABA (Applied Behavior Analysis)
But they focus pada self help, social skills, fine motor skills
The best part ada include speech therapy and occupational therapy
Selain tu ada music therapy, autism movement therapy, Brain Gym
Added Value: Islamic based therapy
Dekat sekolah ada Ustaz yang akan ajar doa bila morning assembly
ada group session and one to one
ada jugak water therapy tapi tu additional fee so tengah fikir-fikir lagi





















aku enrolled Hamza untuk Full day Program from 8.30am - 3.30pm
Tapi 7.30 dah hantar dia pergi sekolah sebab sadly we're both working slaves
Pergi abah dia hantar pasal abah dia masuk kerja pukul 9am
Balik ummi ambik pasal ummi keluar office 5.00pm
Sebab nusery dah penuh , school akan hantar hamza ke transit nursery yang selang 1 blok
transit nursery pun Alhamdullillah so far so good
owner sangat baik dan jagaan yang baik so far (Bondamama branch)
will talk about transit nursery in separate post

Hamza ada dapat communication book
basically teacher akan tulis daily activity
mostly apa task yang hamza buat what he can and can't do yet
Teacher Hamza nama dia teacher Suhaila
MasyaAllah baik dan friendly
Teacher Su pun ada anak special needs so she knows exactly what she's doing























Apa-apa pun aku nak say whole lotta THANKS WITH HUGSSS AND LOVEE
to TEEFA yang share pasal TIM-ATHFAAL ni
she's the one yang inform pasal TIM-ATHFAAL dah buka kat wangsa maju
Dia siap pergi Open Day
So aku terus macam what the heck just go check it out
sebab aku sebenarnya macam dah putus asa bila check harga EIP kat Malaysia
ni semua RIBU-RIBAN untuk 3 jam sehari kalau untuk daily program
Sesuailah sebab memang 1-1 program and you have your own therapist
Aku mula-mula pun fikir nak register NASOM je but hesitated
sebab jauh dari perjalanan kitorang lakibini nak pegi keja

So bila pergi borak dengan Teacher Su...pastu jumpa Manager dia Ms Rushd
terus jatuh cinta and the rest is history.
I can see Hamza is happier than ever!

Pasal fee don't worry...definitely will not leave you broke
aku sangat BERTUAH sebab company fully covered bulan-bulan yuran
untuk any rehabilitation program for Hamza sebab dia ada OKU card
Aku bersyukur sangat ada employer yang prihatin kepada anak-anak OKU
By right aku boleh pergi mana-mana EIP Mahal gila tu sebab fully covered - no limit
tapi aku sendiri tak mampu nak dahulukan duit dulu...hahaha
so yeah takpa, so far I am confident with TIM -ATHFAAL
InsyaAllah, kita tengok dalam 6 months macam mana






















Seronok naik kereta tapi bila sampai simpang wangsa maju menangissss
and yeah hamza telah dibotakkan atas sebab-sebab tak dapat dielakkan
will story later if I have time
ummi SEDIH!

Next aku akan cerita improvement Hamza sejak sekolah
mungkin sikit tapi besar maknanya pada aku

Hamza first day of school recorded
walaupun kena bangun 6.30 pagi tapi excited dia tuuuuu