Mama Don't You Cry

Came across this post dekat timeline FB
Rules for fathers of sons
quickly share it with my surfacing
I can safely say surfacing already achieved number 26
haha
No lah hunney,
You are doing perfectly fine
I could not ask for more
Tiap-tiap malam dulu kerja saya tukar diaper, pyjama and feed hamza before tidur
tapi sekarang awak yang buat
haaa nampak tak permainan itu
ngeeee

Then aku saja blogwalk dekat penulis article ni
Diapers & Daisies
The moment I read the current entry, I'm hooked.
scrolling for more and more entry
She's a mother of 3  with another one on the way
She shares tips, experience, insecurity and paranoia of being a mother
Best sangat
until I read this post
"The mommy ward mindset of different"
Simply made me cry
The never ending dilemma between SAHM and working mom


" She may not choose this life. It may be necessary for her family.
Or maybe it is a choice, but that doesn't mean that it makes it any easier"
-Diapers & daisies

Oh how I wish I don't have to go to work everyday
Oh how I wish I can spend more quality time with Hamza
Oh how I wish I can cook variety food for my son and my husband
Oh how I wish I don't have to leave my son with a complete stranger at the daycare

Everytime aku fikir pasal hamza masuk taska ni rasa nak mengalir air mata aku
dahla 2-3 hari ni manja kemain
BS dia kata asyikla nangis tak boleh tinggal langsung
macam tau-tau je
Next week monday first day dia akan test duduk kat taska
selasa-rabu masih dengan babysitter
Khamis onwards start dengan taska
Aku siap ambik cuti monday to check on him every 3 hours to make sure everything okay
Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan olehNya
Semoga Hamza happy di tempat baru dengan kawan-kawan
Semoga babysitter di taska melayan Hamza dengan baik

Don't worry Ummi,
Hamza belajar MMA ni
Tiap-tiap malam layan UFC sama abah
Kalau dorang katok Hamza, Hamza mengadu kat Allah suruh katok dorang balik tau ummi

Random

so true!!
aku gelak gila tengok ni
ramai pulak dok share kat IG
This week memang busy

ada 5 reports, ganti bos masuk meeting

ada 2 event upcoming

this week I wish I have more time

tapi tetap nak balik pukul 5 tepat takmo keja lebih

haha

tapi dalam busy ni khatam gak stalk blog orang 

aku nak update pasal hamza 12-14 months

tapi nanti lah sebab aku ni suka cerita panjang2 with pictures

so jadinya tak siap2 entry tu

aku tak sabar nak tunggu bulan 12

sebab nak settlekan event besar pastu boleh amik cuti seminggu wahh

cuti aku ada 7 hari lagi ni

cuti kat sini banyak wey...aku setahun dapat 28 cuti ke apa ntah

aku suka tengok blogilates ni

Thanks tina bila u share ni rasa macam ada harapan nak kurus balik

tapi ntah bila aku nak start buat ni

neverending house chores 

but it give me a glimpse of hope yang aku boleh kurus walaupun tak pergi gym

Oh how I miss my Lynyrd Skynyrd and Black Sabbath T-shirt

Bila gemuk ni buat aku tak suka amik gambar

explaining why my IG penuh gambar Hamza je

aku jumpa Honest Trailer  by screen junkies kat youtube

serius lawak gila weyyy

dia review filem2 dengan cara paling honest sekali

please, watch it

it will make your day

kena ceramah 3 jam sama bos sampai jadi tepu

bila tengok honest trailer ni terus riang gembira alam ria cuti sekolah

ni salah satu favourite aku

spot on!

Came across this PSA dekat facebook

I really really like it

Heartbreaking

but successfully send a powerful message to parents out there

including me

Post by Baju Kurung bayi dan kanak kanak ( Mybargainz Shop ).

Never ever take our children for granted

never ever leave our children out of sight

yang aku observe biasa kalau anak sorang kita masih alert

tapi bila dah ramai, kita akan mudah cuai

opportunist akan ada di mana-mana

bila letak anak dalam stroller masa shopping always make sure stroller kita pegang

never let it go

make sure buckle up anak kat stroller

kalau tak, senang je dia nak angkut anak kita sekelip mata je boleh hilang

kalau keluar berdua je dengan baby kena sentiasa pandang kiri kanan

tapi kalau nak jadi, akan jadi jugak kan

semoga anak kita semua sentiasa dilindungiNya

eh dah nak pukul 5.00
Hello Weekend :)

Movie Time : Thor- The Dark World

5 STAR.
ENOUGH SAID.

It's a Mom Thing

aku terbaca kawan aku share kat FB yang aku rasa macam
ehhhh betul sangat ni.

so just for fun mommies and you will find this article make sense


24 CLEAR SIGNS YOU'RE A MOM

Co-authored by Mark Simmons, co-founder WeMothers llc

We asked the moms of www.wemothers.com what it means to be a mom. Here is what they told us. You know you are a mom when:

1. Instead of running from projectile vomit, you run towards it.
    (running with wet cloth dan febreeze okayyy)

2. You do more in seven minutes than most people do all day.
(talking about sterile bottle while masak while buat susu while basuh pinggan)

3. Happy hour has become the 60 minutes between your kids going to bed and you going to bed. (bila hamza tidur aku pun yeay layan internet tp kena pulak pegi lipat kain)

4. A night of drinking requires more recovery time than minor surgery.

5. A glass of wine counts as a serving of fruit.
(for me, lebihan buah yang potong untuk hamza counts as serving of fruit)

6. You have mini-therapy sessions all day long with anyone who will listen.(helloo whatsapp girlfriends yeay theraphy all day available 24-7 hehe)

7. Going to the grocery store by yourself is a vacation.(sometimes aku rasa driving time jam pun boleh jadi "me time")

8. You can experience heaven and hell at the same time.(tidur peluk hamza tiba2 dia pusing and hantuk kepala kat muka aku and aku menjerit sakit gilaaa..or for u breastfeeding mothers sambil seronok bf sambil ketakutan kena gigit haha)

9. You think of physical pain on three levels: pain, excruciating pain and stepping on a Lego.(that stupid blocks...and mini cars and botol vicks cemana kau ada kat bawah ni?)

10. You have the ability to hear a sneeze through closed doors in the middle of the night, two bedrooms away, while your SO snores next to you(especially bila dia selsema hidung block..we, mothers have sixth sense)

11. You'd rather have a 103 degree fever than watch one of your kids suffer with it.(freaking true!)

12. You'd rather go to sleep than have sex.

13. A 15-minute shower with the door locked feels like a day at the spa.
(my usual shower 8 min je...lebih 8 minit means aku tengah basuh bilik air)

14. Peeing with an audience is part of the daily routine.(done that)

15. You use baby wipes to clean up random spills and the dash of your car.
(one in handbag, one in the car with hand sanitizer)

16. You lock yourself in the bathroom and pretend to have diarrhea just to get a break.

17. You love Moms' Night Out and Date Night with the Hubs.

18. You have a secret chocolate stash because frankly, you're sick of sharing.

19. You've been washing the same load of laundry for three days because you forgot to dry it.
(sejak jadi mak ni memang pelupa je keja. happened to me all the time)

20. You realize you've been watching Nick Jr. alone, even though your kids have been in bed for over 30 minutes.
(in my case - babytv. I even subconsciously humming babytv song out loud sampai surfacing tegur - yang ko nyanyi lagu hamza ni napa?)

21. You can cook dinner, breastfeed, talk on the phone and yell at the kids, all without breaking stride or missing any of the TV show you are watching.
(record je pakai decoder)

selingan lunch bila mood rajin

22. You get more excited about the Mini Boden Catalogue than J Crew's.(I get excited at H&M kids section, kedai buah MBG , toys r us and any outlet with kids section)

23. You decide to stick with your car for the next decade because a) you can't afford to switch and b) you haven't found a car wash that knows how to get all the milk stains and glitter removed.

24. By the end of the day, brushing your teeth feels like a huge accomplishment.

For me, one more sign you're a mom is you will try to talk about your child in any conversation and even though it's totally unrelated you will find a way to make it somehow connected to mention their name at least once.

The very obvious sign I AM A MOM when I dedicate all my love song for my husband to my Hamza. contohnya lagu "I dont want to miss a thing by aerosmith" "sempurna by adra and the backbone" and "can't take my eyes off of you by frankie valli"

sorry honey, semua tu dah jadi lagu untuk Hamza.
tapi lagu "wonderful tonight" still yours.
haha.

MY INTERMONOLOGUE:Aerosmith - I don't Want To Miss A Thing

Guardian

Ahad lepas beli groceries kat Jusco

super crowded parking penuh rupanya baru teringat ada AEON Sale

so masa tengah beratur bayar tu dapat sms dari babysitter Hamza

"Salam Lela. Nak bagitau sesuatu ..sebelum tu nak minta maaf banyak..

sebenarnya tak sampai hati tapi kena cakap jugak...kami dah sepakat nak pindah

balik kampung disember ni ..jadi tak dapatlah nak jaga hamza nanti"

aku baca je terus tunjuk zul

dua-dua diam..speechless

lagipun tengah kat kaunter bayar kan

dalam kereta aku dah macam 

"alamak..sapa nak jaga hamza nanti niii"

sambil berbalas2 mesej sama bs hamza

but sms aku takdelah mcm menunjukkan kekecewaan

aku cakap its ok, terima kasih jaga hamza selama ni

susah nak dapat pengasuh macam dia dah..

it's time for her to move on, berhijrah

good for her

but honestly...aku rasa aku susah nak dapat pengasuh macam lidya dah

dia dahla jaga anak aku sorang je

tak berkira masa, tak banyak kisah dengan cerewet dan perangai skema aku ni

bayangkanlah aku bagi 3 muka do's and dont's masa first hantar hamza

tak pernah memandai2 nak bagi anak aku makan apa2

hamza pun seronok je dengan dia pasal ada anak2 dia rajin melayan

Then it hit me...

I have to send hamza to nursery!

memang aku ada plan nak hantar hamza pi taska umur 2 tahun nanti

but this is too early

at least dia dah boleh jalan baru aku confident sikit

dia dahla kalau ramai2 orang dia akan nangis pasal tak biasa

cemana kalau dia nangis setiap kali hantar?

ada budak lain tak buli dia nanti?

makan minum on time tak nanti?

pampers tukar selalu tak? 

adoi nak kena beli sticker untuk baju and barang2 dia pulak

which is aku dah survey nak beli kat sini

brightstarkids

thanks bai for sharing tak sabar pulak nak iron on kat baju dia semua

maka malam tu mengadulah aku pada mommy2 whatsapp

thank you ladies for listening and bagi cadangan

esok tu aku terus google call sana sini

so aku ada a few options:

1. Taska cahayamata kat office aku

- 30 kids 10 teachers / RM 260.00

- 5 orang budak baya hamza

so far kuota dah penuh tapi aku hantar je borang permohonan kot dapat

pro: 

senang jenguk anak

cons: 

aku ni bukan kerja dok opis je so kalau meeting or event kat luar cemana?

Hamza kena bangun awal gila pastu aku ni dahla bawak kereta laju cilok sana sini

macam menakutkan pulak pikir nak bawak hamza 1 jam pergi and 1 jam balik

2. Taska Mama Anis Taman sri gombak

- 9 kids 2 babysitter and 1 more nak tambah end of this month
- dekat area bs hamza sekarang

Pro:

aku dah buat lawatan tapak so far aku puas hati sebab owner taska

adalah owner tadika i-kids

Taska berdaftar JKM, Bomba, persatuan taska selangor, KKM

 6.30am - 7.00pm / RM 350.00

kebersihan ok rumah endlot semua ada gate dan berkunci

aku boleh park playpen hamza kat bilik atas so tak kongsi dengan baby lain

bilik tu ada aircond and khas untuk baby je

My 1st choice so far

Cons:

Kena make sure dia ada tambah sorang pekerja tu kalau tak 2 orang

nak jaga 9 budak mana boleh

3. Taska Ibu Ana

- Taska paling besar di Taman Sri Gombak siap ada cawangan

- ada website

- Kalau baca macam impressive la berdaftar semua siap ada CCTV

- aku dah call pengetua nak jumpa and lawat taska sabtu ni

Pro:

Nampak gaya memang pro taska ni siap buat kursus untuk pengusaha taska

Cons:

Pengetua dia kata dah penuh setakat ni tapi boleh bincang this saturday

What about babysitter?

aku jumpa sorang je tapi dia ni jaga 5 orang...

rumah dia pulak kat kawasan paling sibuk kat taman sri gombak ni

rumah tepi jalan opposite shoplot jadi aku rasa macam tak sesuai

aku ada call a few places macam montessori tapi tu macam kelas 3 jam je

ada Little Caliph pulak untuk umur 4-6 tahun 

aku serius jeles dengan ada satu taska cina ni

dahla rumah banglo sebesar-besarnya

ada playground, ada kelas dari baby lagi siap ada van khas 

patutla taska cina ni mahal kan sampai mencecah seribu sebulan

Apa-apa pun aku harap dapat taska yang elok untuk Hamza

aku risau sangat tapi aku cuba fikir baik-baik je

berfikiran positif and berdoa semoga Allah lindung anak aku

time macam ni la rasa nak berhenti kerja je

But not just yet, I am so sorry hamza

ummi gotta work for us,  for nenek

zaman sekarang tak macam dulu

kuih pun 60 sen

kita kena beli rumah dulu

rumah pulak dah jadi juta-juta

takpalah kita bersusah-susah dahulu ye hamza

InsyaAllah bila tiba masa, awak akan ada ummi 24 jam kat rumah nanti

kita tengok disney kids sama-sama 

sambil layan croissant atau nasi lemak sotong special yang ummi buat sendiri 

pasal dok rumah kena la masak ye tak

ngeeee