Monday, March 19, 2012

Dark Waters


08.03.12 | 2.00am


It's been raining since 4pm, non stop, consistently heavy
11pm and still raining
I told myself to call my mom, just to be alert
but I fell asleep


08.03.12 | 6.00am


Received SMS from my sister around 3am
Flood.
For the third time in 29 years
The last flood was 3 years ago
and happened in the month of March too




08.03.12 | 11.00am


My brother uploaded some picture
It's up to the waist
and it happened too fast they unable to move stuff






08.03.12 | 3.00pm

Me and Surfacing decided to take a day off and helped out
It was a total mess
Everything fell apart
Thick mud
We have to throw almost all furniture
mattress
some electrical item
I can safely say it's about 20k loss
My brother's brand new kawasaki ninja alone need about 7k repairing cost




08.03.12 | 9.10pm

Whatever it is I'm still grateful
Everyone's safe
We still have our house
Still have our clothes and TV and fridge
Most important, it happened after the wedding
Both me and my sister wedding
Thank you Allah SWT.

Friday, March 02, 2012

A Life Less Ordinary


Rayyan-Hopefully my baby as fair and as cute as you!


9 weeks.
Alhamdulillah so far so good.
Last week check dah dapat dengar heartbeat.
Baru tau yang heartbeat baby ni laju rupanya ye.
Tersengih-sengih bila terpikir
menyesal tak ambik video heartbeat tu
Another 3 weeks to go untuk trimester 1.
Masih berhati-hati and keep praying everything safe and smooth.


Antara simptom selama 9 weeks:

1. Takda morning sickness tapi evening pukul 5pm-10pm

2. Waktu maghrib paling crucial - dah 4x muntah so far

3. Suka makan yogurt especially berries flavor

4. Dulu boleh minum susu sekarang kena minum dengan cereal sebab loya

5. Dulu terbayang fried food dah loya sekarang tak boleh makan spaghetti

6. Suka gila nasi lemak. Minggu ni dah 4x aku makan nasi lemak. Rasa bersalah sangat.

7. Driving nak balik tu amat meloyakan so kena kunyah snickers

8. Love bananas especially dole!

9. Perut berangin, senak and susah sendawa

10. Emotional sikit tengok cerita sedih sikit je dah berair air mata. So not me!

11.Snacking every 1 hour to avoid nausea. Current favourite- biskut munchys, biskut tiger,
oat krunch and snickers.

12. very dry and itchy skin and acne break out...sigh.

13. Very sleepy during the day and mild back ache

14. Cepat mengantuk - pukul 11.00 maximum pastu terus pengsan sampai pagi

15. Malas masak and jadi clumsy bila masak.
kalau dah malas memangla macam-macam kan.heh.


Other than that, I think everything ok
Rasanya tak teruk lagi so far since tak muntah sangat
I hope trimester 1 berakhir dengan baik
Can't wait for the next phase :)


MY INTERMONOLOGUE:
Ash - Goldfinger

Thursday, March 01, 2012

Awakening


source


Semalam emosi je aku baca tweet manusia-manusia yang marah
konsert Erykah Badu ni kena banned
lagi emosi bila manusia-manusia ni melayu islam
pastu artis-artis melayu islam pulak
Macam perkara remeh je kan macam takda offended langsung
Siap cakap oh melayu ni cepat sangat insulted la kolot la apa la...
Wow, so shallow.

Lukis gambar Nabi Muhammad SAW pun menyebabkan
seluruh muslim di dunia membantah
apatah lagi memakai tattoo Allah SWT.
Ini religion la bukan culture, get it?
Takde sensitivity langsung ke?

Ada yang persoalkan kata tu just temporary tattoo la...
She's ill-informed la apa lah
yes, yes aku tak peduli masalah dia
masalahnya sekarang kita yang seolah-olah menyokong kesilapan dia.

Yang blame Rais Yatim jangan cakapla
Siap terkeluar pulak isu-isu politik
(blearghhh)
kenapa sehari sebelum konsert and just after keluar paper The Star baru nak banned?
kenapa tak check awal-awal dulu masa sebelum bagi permit
Hellooo
Aku pun honestly tak pernah tau tentang kewujudan gambar dia pakai tattoo camtu
maybe because I'm not a fan pun
so apatah lagi la menteri yang busy tu dan orang-orang gomen yang approve tu

Padan muka Pineapple Concert
tipu la kalau korang tatau pasal gambar tu langsung
Masa hantar proposal tu mesti tak tunjuk punya gambar tu
atau maybe dia photoshop kan tattoo tu
lepas dapat permit happy je kan
sekali Allah SWT nak tunjuk... hamik kau
terpampang besar2 dekat paper The Star
just a few days before the concert
Served you right.
Rugi memang rugi la
But patut korang dah predict benda ni boleh jadi
Kita ni hidup zaman communication atas ke bawah
Kan senang kalau bawak artis-artis yang less risky kan

The thing is,
once we know about the information
We can't unlearn it
or ignore it
So what Rais Yatim did memang wajar
Ini negara Islam yang berjuta rakyatnya beragama Islam
yang walaupun mungkin tak alim mana pun
tapi bila kita dah tau fakta bahawa nama Allah SWT terpampang
dekat badan half-naked Erykah Badu
Are we gonna close one eye and move on?
Sejahil itu ke kita?

I better stop before I get too emotional.
Just read ada satu portal gossip ni yang menyokong tindakan menteri
dan menempelak tindakan artis yang bantah
Good one.

Kita maybe masih belum sempurna
masih merangkak mencari cahaya
Cuba menjadi Muslim yang lebih baik dari hari sebelumnya
Tapi jangan sampai yang NYATA dan BENAR itu dipersoalkan.
Nauzubillah.

Monday, February 27, 2012

Two Of Us



We went to our honeymoon at Singapore last week for 3 days.
day 1 for the Judas Priest Epitaph Farewell World Tour with Lamb of God
Day 2 for Universal Studio Singapore
and day 3 simply jalan-jalan

I had to let go the concert ticket once we find out about the pregnancy
so sad...
Thank God dapat jual to Jaie Sil Khannaz
and dapat pulak beli tiket USS from a friend of a friend for only rm300 per pair.
rezeki.

It's my first time going outside Malaysia.
Even though just Singapore, I'm freaking excited about it.




USS totally awesome!
Can't play all the killer rides...
Oh how I wish...
especially when your partner go mad about the transformers 4d ride
and he went twice!

Definitely will go again sometime
will share more pics later.
now I have to face the fact that it's Monday and it's working day.
sigh.



MY INTERMONOLOGUE:
Toto - Georgy Porgy

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

The Book of Love


*beautiful illustration ala Struzan by our blood brother- anas hussain
* our version of bram stoker dracula in the photo frame by my dear surfacing


7 weeks after our wedding day and masih tak habis letak gambar...
sebabnya gamba Official photog tak dapat lagi maka down nak update...
ngeee

tapi takpa lah this entry just nak share a few pics from the Bukit Damansara Reception
masa 1 January 2012.
Thanks my brother, ajin and shananeh tolong capture kan gambar
so this event kurang penat sikit from reception 25.12 tuh
sebab pelamin pakej dah sama Sri Angsana Catering
But we still have to do a few stuff sebab meja kerusi from our side


Dewan Bukit Damansara - white wedding setup again

something happened the night before our reception
but I'm not gonna talk about it in this entry
Overall I"m so happy with my wedding reception
Even makeup pun behave better from before


entrance


cake cutting with "love song for a vampire by Annie Lennox"
as the main theme

Inspired by Bram Stoker Dracula :)

Vendor semua best tak mendatangkan masalah langsung
Sri Angsana Catering sangat menepati janji
malah ada value added item yang dia bagi
Yang paling happy we requested plain white cake and dorang dengar cakap!
very sweet plain white cake with white flower kecik kat tengah
They even decorate the cake cutting table yang memang takda dalam pakej pun
phewww


G.I. Photoshoot pun willing pegi outdoor kat Central Market
tempat yang memang kitorang dah aim lama
walaupun kena pusing2 cari entrance...hehehehe
Alhamdulillah sangat


With my handsome ayah. So dashing wearing silver!



adik aku dah tukar uniform time ni nak mengemas dah


Cuma satu jela tak ramai kawan-kawan ku dapat datang ke reception sini
But takpelah takde rezeki
Whatever it is, we had a blast and glad everything is over.
Penat woi planning wedding sendiri.
No more pening kepala nak memikir deco atau beli itu ini



the bride!

pasni cuma pening dengan hal lain pulak lah...
7 weeks and counting :)



MY INTERMONOLOGUE:
Jack Johnson - Better Together

Wednesday, February 08, 2012

With Arms Wide Open

We stand in awe,
we've created life

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything

With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything...

6 weeks,
Alhamdulillah.




MY INTERMONOLOGUE:
Creed- With Arms Wide Open

Thursday, February 02, 2012

Abdul Muqeet bin Khairul Muizz


30.01.12 12.00pm Hospital Serdang

Assalamualaikum Abdul Muqeet Bin Khairul Muizz.
Welcome to this world.
Wish you all the love in this world.
Be good to your mom and dad.
Be good to everyone.
Congratulations my dear shananeh and Muizz.
Can't wait to see you guys!



MY INTERMONOLOGUE:
Ray Charles & Joe Cocker - You Are So Beautiful


Friday, January 20, 2012

The Book of Love



I got some beautiful photos from my bestfriend, shana.
Photos captured probono by her husband, Muizz.
I'm all smiling when she shared the pics via YM
It remind me of my Nikah day
the akad moment especially

I always thought my mom was very relax compare to my father
because she's not crying at all and constantly worried kenduri food preparation
But I was wrong
Looking at the pic, she got all teary-eyed during the doa
Feels like running home now and hug my mom
I miss her





Like I said, ayah almost made me cry
I put my mind at other place to hold the tears
I'm so grateful, muizz captured this precious moment





Close up shot of exchanging rings
notice his hands look softer than mine...
ngeee




Pics with my girls
oh what will I do without you babes




" I don't want to waste another moment of my life without you in it"





MY INTERMONOLOGUE:
The Swell Season (Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova) - Fallen from the sky

Friday, January 13, 2012

The Book of Love



20 days as husband and wife.
I'm enjoying every moment with my other half.
So this is marriage.
You and me.
Togetherness.
Good times bad times.
Sometimes I have this feeling like "wow, I'm married"
Can't believe that 1 year prep is over.


Now I cannot wait to see my wedding pictures.
Haven't got anything from my official photog yet.
But looking at photos that were captured by my brother, friends and relative
making me excited about my wedding.

These are some of the photos by ajin, shana and fiza
Can't thank them enough for capturing these moments






SOLEMNIZATION
25.12.11.
My humble home


The DIY Pelamin
We called it "Whiter shade of Pale"
ngeeee
We did this pelamin in 2 days
Our first idea was to put paper flower as background but time is running out
So we replace it with the fan shape thingy using tracing paper
Totally worth it because everything belong to us
Now the sofa at our living room :)
I will do another pelamin for my sister this coming february
and it's pink!



I don't know about zul but I'm not nervous at all
Cuma rasa sebak sangat bila masa nak nikahkan
suara ayahku sebak like he's about to cry
and kena buat lafaz sekali lagi sebab ayah cakap tersekat-sekat menahan sebak
I almost cried
I can see how my father loves me so much
This is the moment he has to let go of me
Love you so much ayah.


Husband and Wife woohoooo
Macam, really? we already married?
whoaa


Our family portrait :)
Syukur sangat.


With my sister and her family
hayyman muka sedih ni beriya menangis taknak amik gambar
jadi la macam ni..ngeee



"Pet, senyum lagi pettt"
Itula reminder photographer dok bagi kat aku
Oh well me and my sour face
I think I've smile enough
Tapi masih nampak macam marghoh
Hopefully takdala muka aku masam macam kawin paksa je
ngeee



Hantaran from him
Kami buat 5 balas 7
My surfacing buat sendiri with the help from his sister and aunt
I really love the Al-Quran in Mini Kaabah
and I love my ring so much
Thank you hunney bunny



Neesa Misae with hantaran from my side
I can't thank you enough Neesa, my bestfriend!
dia sleepover rumah aku the night before
and she's responsible for this lovely hantaran!
Kalau neesa and her sister takda memang tak tidur la aku malam tu buat menda ni
I don't even know I can do this pretty.
and thank u so much jay jeha for helping me with the sirih junjung
yang ada carnation and sirih tu
Masha Allah masa tengok all the decoration,
I'm so happy because this is what I wanted
Oh what will I do without you babe



My father look so handsome with baju melayu!
Me and zul personally chose the material and color
Send to tailor and dry clean
I want my parents to wear new things on my wedding day
Really glad it looks amazing on them
Cikman yang terlalu busy with the coordination sampai tak tukar baju pun
Cik Man and Cik Idah,
only Allah SWT will repay your kindness to our family
Tak berkira duit, energy
Mereka ni memang orang kuat wedding aku
Jasa terlalu besar tak terbalas oleh aku dan zul



With my lovely parents
The arch was build by Sham, anak cik man
Dia ada bengkel belakang rumah aku
How convenient kan
Talking about my parents,
the day after masa packing nak move out
Aku rasa kosong sangat especially when my father
tengok-tengok time packing
First time I cried like a child
Hugging ayah and ummi
It's really sad to leave after living here for 28 years
I'm homesick for a week and asked zul to go home almost everyday
Dengan alasan barang tinggal la apa la
The actual fact is I miss them so much and I want to be around them all the time.
Tak sabar nak balik minggu ni :)



With the heavily pregnant, my bestfriend, Shananeh
Oh babe, thank u so much for capturing beautiful photos
using instax, iphone and even dslr
Can't wait nak tengok yang DSLR...ihihi
Shana tengah menanti hari je ni due around next week
I pray for the best
Semoga selamat both you and baby



Beautiful henna by amrina, hennaratusehari
She's really good and I'm glad I made the decision to wear full henna
Even aku buat design baru untuk event dewan pulak
I never like wearing inai
But for wedding, I say go for it!
This is the time nak pakai inai penuh tangan atas bawah and tak nampak pelik
Even get compliment and orang mintak contact number amrina
Thank you Am, you're the best!
yang macam smear to sebab tangan aku tak berenti berpeluh...hehehehe



with best man and Maid of Honor
My beautiful sister, bai and her fiancee, Erfan
Bulan 2 ni turn dorang pulak naik pelamin
Me and my surfacing in charge with the wedding look and event coordination
Definitely looking forward to that :)
bai, erfan, my brother ajin and her gf murni memang banyak sangat tolong aku
I am blessed with siblings macam ni yang buat doorgift tak tidur
Murni, I want you to be my in law, InsyaAllah!
She's really helpful, nice and rajin sangat.
Ajin please jaga murni elok-elok ok because I really like her.


With Cik Naimah and family
I known them since sekolah rendah lagi
Last year along and angah kawin
Yang bestnya dorang ada amik gambar and upload dengan penuh efisien sekali
Thank you guys
really love all the photos :)



Orang -orang kuat
family, relatives, friends, Godfather
Yang support dari segi energy, barangan dan duit
Tolong Ummi masak dari 2 hari sebelum
yang basuh pinggan
yang make sure makanan semua ada
Whole lotta love!


With Neesa and Shana
Tak sabar nak lepak wey


Ok sereyes tak sabar nak tengok official wedding photo
Idzwan...some teaser plisss


MY INTERMONOLOGUE:
Edwin McCain - I Could Not Asked For More

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

Sempurna



251211

9 days married to the man I truly love, Zulkarnain Azhar...my dear surfacing.
We've been waiting for this moment for 10 years.
It's never been better than this.

Thank you to our wonderful family, relatives and friends.
Thank you for attending our wedding receptions.
Thank you for the thoughtful prayers, wishes and kind gifts.
Thank you for the endless love and support,
money and energy regardless.
I love every moments, every details, every flaws of my wedding day.
It's all happening :)



MY INTERMONOLOGUE:
Crush - Senyum Indah